Week 13- Money Talks

Money Matters

When my kids get married, I want them to know two things.

1.     You are not perfect, and neither is your spouse.  Don’t get on a high horse because you don’t have one.

2.     The way you do things is not the only way to do things.  Come up with your own way to do things as a couple

Money management is a source of contention for a lot of married couples out there.  My theory on this is that it is because you are taking one human from one environment with ideas and habits about money, and combining it with another human from another environment with ideas and habits about money.  Throw in poor communication skills, and the inability to see that you aren’t always right all the time and you have the perfect marital storm for discord.  What I found most interesting in the readings this week was the birth order checklist in relation to how you manage money.  I am the oldest child, and after reading the list I was like, “Oh my heck I am so glad my husband is still able to love me because I am such a pill!  Control freak much?!” My husband is both the second child and middle child, and there were components of both.  More middle than second child, but he likes to live dangerously. 

Here is my take away-

1.     Trying to blend two different family rules without communicating is why we had such a hard time getting our budget under wraps the first ten years of our marriage.

2.     It got a lot better after a lot of individual and group therapy.

3.     Go on a date and do the surveys in Poduska’s booked called Till Debt to us Part specifically in chapter two.

4.     Be nice to yourself as you realize that you are not the authority on everything.  This helps with the compromising that needs to happen.  Honestly I was really embarrassed about some of my go to behaviors like shutting down and then just avoiding the topic all together. 

5.     Write out your financial goals as a couple!  Compromise on them until both are satisfied.  It is okay if this takes a while.  This will take a lot of practice.  You can do it!  Marriage is worth the crap load of self-reflection you have to do to make it work. 

Week 12- How to be a cool mother/father in law

What is one new idea you learned from the article from Richard Miller ("Who is the boss? Power Relationships in Families")?

Article from Richard Miller on power relationships taught me a few things, but before I get into it, there is some backstory needed here.

 A long time ago I started a journal, a new fresh journal because I had experienced something I had not experienced before.  As time went on I continued to write and learn and process.  I didn’t realize at the time that I was keeping a therapy journal.  I don’t think that anyone will ever read this journal. I am not even totally sure I would want anyone to read this journal.  I still write in this journal depending on how many interactions I have with certain people.  A few years ago I gave this journal a title. “Things I will never do or say to my future sons and daughters in law.”

            Parent child relationships change and grow.  I treat my fourteen year old differently than my eleven, six and four-year-old children.  I expect different behaviors from them, all depending on age and personality.  This continues into adulthood.  Richard Millar writes, “When children become adults, the relationship between parents and children changes. In healthy families, the parents no longer exercise control or expect their adult children to obey them. Of course, parents still have the right to set household rules concerning appropriate behavior in their house, but they no longer have the right or responsibility to tell their adult children what to do. It is now the stewardship of the adult children to make decisions concerning their own families.” Italics added for emphasis.  This has been a source of much contention in my life.  I don’t want to go into much detail, but I will tell you what I have learned.

Respect your adult child’s choices.  Especially in who they love.  As an adult parent, your job is to support and love.  Both your child, and their spouse. 

Get to know your daughter/son-in-law.  Find common ground. 

 Do not play the blame game.  Because this is how it will go.  You will blame their spouse.  Every time.  You can’t see past your parental blinders, and it is so much easier to blame the person who isn’t your son/daughter

  Do not let adult children confide their marital issues with you.  If they really need help, there are a plenty of marriage and family therapists who are trained to help them.  Set that boundary, and then refer to number three.

Show and express to them that they are always welcome in your home.  If you want to be welcome in their life, they need to feel welcome in your home. 

Don’t come over unannounced.  Just don’t.

 Be considerate. Go out of your way to make their favorite food or something as simple as knowing what their favorite candy is, and having a bowl of it. 

Don’t play the competition game with your adult child’s in-laws.  It just gets really weird.

  Remember their birthday.  You don’t want to be the person 16 years later that can’t remember their daughter in law’s birthday. 

They are a part of your family, for better or worse.  How you treat them can make a big difference in what category their marriage falls.

Communicate expectations clearly with your adult children and their families.  Be prepared to be okay with it if they are not able to meet those expectations.  They may not be able to make it to every family function, and that is okay.  It doesn’t mean they love you any less.

Spencer W. Kimball said, “Well-meaning relatives have broken up many a home. Numerous divorces are attributable to the interference of parents who thought they were only protecting their loved children… Live your own life.”  Hallelujah and Amen to that. 

Week 11- From the shallow end to the deep end

Those who know me well know that I don't like to beat around the bush.  I think it is a waste of time as well as never really getting to the point.  With that said, I am just going to put this out there.  I view marital intimacy as a very big perk of being married.  The fact that sex is how babies happen is just a bonus.  So lets talk about this like grown ups who can have a real conversation.

The way I feel about intimacy is pretty simple.  If it isn't fun, if it isn't enoyable, if it isn't everything you thought it would be, then you are doing something wrong.  I am not going to walk you through what you might be doing wrong, but I can tell you what has helped me a lot.

1.  Be open and honest in what you are and are not comforable with.  Being intimate with your spouse is also expressing yourself in a way that is clear as well as respectful to your partner.  In addition, be being open and honest with what is and is not working for you (if you get my meaning) is just as important.  I mean, can you really be upset and blame your partner for your unfulfilling expereince if you didn't say anything and just expected your spouse to read your mind?

I like that the prophets have stated that marital intimacy is not only for bringing souls into the world, but also the fulfilment of the marraige.  In A Parent's Guide, it states, "Both husbands and wives have a physical, emotional, psychological, and spiritual need associated with this sacred act.  They will be able to compliment each other in marraige relationship if they give tender, considerate attention to these needs of thier partner.  Each should seek to fulfill the other's needs rather than use this highly significant relationship merely to satisfy his or her own passion."  I chose to place the italics to highlight a point that it would be very difficult to fulfill the other's needs if they are not communicated clearly. 

2.  It took me some time to get over the fact that for so long I knew only the basics around sexual intercourse, and that I was told for so long that it was bad and that I should not even engage in anything that would lead up to it.  Then I got married and all was 'legal'.  It send my mind on a trip.  I wasn't comfortable with my own natural feelings.  I had to talk with a counselor for a few sessions to wrap my head around it, and to begin exploring this new territory with my husband.  It helped tremendously and I was able to give myself permisison to enjoy and explore my sexuality with my husband.  If you are struggling, go see someone.  There is no shame in asking for help.  

Marital intimacy can facilitate a powerful bond between husband and wife.  Communicating clearly but lovingly is key to a successful experience.  From my own experience,  I enjoy this time with my husband because he is invested in how I feel just as much as I am invested in how he feels.  This also applies to emotional intimacy.  Caring about your partner, putting them first, and clearly communicating needs can help with marital closeness.   

Week 10 ROW ROW ROW

Goddard’s book “Drawing Heaven into Your Marriage” is a tough read for me.  I honestly struggle to get through the gospel centered marriage type books. However, I did have some big take-aways from this book.  The overall theme of this book to me is this: In order to have a strong marriage, you need to look inward and improve yourself first.  Have Christ like love for your spouse, and be able to work out the kinks in our own life before you put all the blame and ‘change’ on the spouses plate. 

            Being married is a lot like being on a rowing team.  If one person is doing all the work, all the compromise, and all the brunt of the relationship, and it will go nowhere.  It takes two people, rowing in time, communicating and being consistent in their efforts to be effective.  One can’t make up for the other’s lack.  The marriage will just go in circles! Marriage is 100% effort from both to make progress in your ‘marriage shell’ to make it to the finish line.

           

WEEK 9 Some realness

This week has been particularly busy for me.  The kids are home from summer, and my husband started an amazing new job two weeks ago.  This was unexpected, and a huge blessing, but it has caused us to quickly revamp our summer plans.  While the new job is a blessing, it is requiring him to be gone a lot more than usual.  Couple that with taking eleven credits over the summer with four kids at home, things are getting a lot more stressful.  The lessons that were taught in chapters eight and nine of ‘The Seven Principles for Making a Marriage Work’ could not have come at a better time.  There are some major things happening that I need help with, like hiring a nanny for three hours a day on the days he is traveling so I can get school done.  I can say from practicing the soft start-up, and adding a sense of humor and lightness to the topics that I needed to discuss with my husband, we were able to reach an outcome that was favorable to both of us.  As an added bonus we both left the discussion feeling great and even deepening our friendship and love for each other. 

If you read the book, the exercise can seem super cheesy.  However, they work like a charm.  The first exercise is the soft start up.  I think that it actually helped in getting my husbands attention more because it was different than how I usually start a conversation.  I realize now that it started with a complaint about how tired or stressed I am, instead of saying, “Hey babe, I am feeling very stressed about getting everything done with school.  I would really like to figure out a way to have some help.  Can we look at the budget and see if we can move some things around?”  I was anticipating some resistance, but he got right on it and we made it happen!  It works!  The second exercise was in making repair attempts, and receiving repair attempts.  I like the humor aspect of this strategy.  Things are lighter when you laugh.  This one might not work all the time, but it works for us.  It also helps us avoid gridlock, as it kinda yanks us out of our current situation and helps us separate from the topic and gain some perspective on what we are talking about. 

My favorite exercise this week was learning to soothe yourself and each other.  I am a yoga teacher, and all the exercise Dr. Gottman suggested you practice with yourself and with each other was straight out of my yoga nidra training.  It was a much simpler form of yoga nidra, but I can say from personal and professional experience that these simple practices will be a game changer in how you regulate your reactions to life situations.  One of the classes I teach is at a drug rehabilitation facility.  They request yoga nidra because you are training your mind and body to not react to stressors, as well as internal and external stimuli.  You can see how valuable this skill would be if you are learning how to maintain sobriety.   In a marriage using these techniques you can training yourself to not react to emotional stress.  Instead, you will take a moment to look at the situation from a calm place instead of a flooded emotional place.  What a powerful tool, right?  Try it.  It works.  Steps four, compromise, and step five, dealing with emotional injuries, are far more likely to happen if you can calmly look at the situation and realize what you are actually fighting about, and where it may be coming from.  Little things can trigger deep emotional wounds, and knowing what those are for yourself personally, as what those are for your spouse make it much easier to realize that some hot button issues have nothing to do with you or your spouse at all, and everything to do with an emotional injury that may have happened before you even met them. 

  (Sidebar- if you need help relaxing, find a yoga nidra class.  You are welcome.)

Week 8 PRIDE has no place in a marriage.

n a marriage, even a strong stable marriage, your faults and weakness become glaringly apparent.  Very quickly.  Sometimes the way your upbringing has something to do with it.  Sometimes its just learning to live with and love you spouse now that you are under the same roof.  What I learned from this week’s readings is that marriage is either a fight to the literal death of the marriage, or learning to yield and change.  I could be very wrong in my assumption, but I don’t think that I am too far off. 

First of all, no one loves to be corrected.  No one relishes in being told that they are doing something wrong.  And no one loves a know it all.  This applies to marriage and yielding to one’s spouse.  There are times where doing certain things a certain way is important to the wife.  In Dr. Gottman’s book “The Seven Principles of Making Marriage Work”, principle four is called “Letting your spouse influence you”.  Dr. Gottman uses the proverbial example of the toilet seat up or down.  He writes, “So a man can score major points with his wife just by putting the seat down.  The wise husband smiles at how smart he is as he drops the lid.”  What struck me is that the husband in this example is still winning, even though he is giving in to what his wife wants.  Could she put the seat down?  Sure.  But knowing that her husband made the effort to yield to something that was important to her will score him major bonus points. At the same time the wife feels valued and validated that her husband loves her, and knows her needs and wants are important to him. 

In my own marriage, I have been very blessed to have a husband who is very aware of things.  More importantly, he is very open to suggestions and needs that I have, especially when I am struggling to get everything together.  Last night was a long one, and we were so tired that I didn’t get the dishes completely finished before going to bed.  I woke up to find that my husband had cleaned the rest of the kitchen this morning, because he knows I like waking up to a clean kitchen.  I didn’t ask him to, but he did that for me because he knew it would make me happy.  This is the win-win situation.  I win by having a clean kitchen and a huge smile on my face.  He wins by cleaning the kitchen and having a super happy and affectionate wife all day long (wink wink :P)  

Letting your partner influence you is in no way giving up your power to your wife or your husband.  I look at it like this:  You can listen and reflect what the person is saying.  You can validate and be there for them.  Then your partner has the opportunity to listen, reflect and validate you.  From that place of listening and understanding, and detaching pride from any of it, together the couple can work together to find that win-win situation like the toilet seat. 

Week 7 Turning towards each other

This week I loved the readings so much.  Turning towards each other in a marriage has a lot to do with building on the friendship and fondness that a couple has for each other.  If you aren't fond of your partner, you aren't going to want to turn towards them, and actively listen to their day.  The metaphor that really helped me conceptualize the idea of turning towards your spouse was the emotional bank account.  By turning towards each other, and prioritizing your spouse and the relationship, you are investing in long term and short term benefits.  Long term benefits are likened to a savings account, a safety net that a couple can pull from when times are tough.  Short term benefits of turning toward each other are the enhancement of the immediate relationship by strengthening trust.  I think that the hardest part of this is learning to read a bid for attention and connection when your spouse is frustrated or angry.  I think it is important in a marriage, and any relationship for that matter, that you never take anything personally when things are said in frustration or anger.  In stead, use that outburst as a little window into your partner's mind or past experiences.  Figure out what you can learn about your partner from this instead of taking it personally.  In the talk it out exercise it has a lot of questions that have to do with an individuals past experiences, as a way of helping a person learn more about themselves, as well as their partner's history.  I think that one can learn a lot about themselves by analyzing their reactions to situations, and where that reaction is rooted.  For me, I react very strongly when I feel like I am not being appreciated.  At the beginning of our marriage, I naively thought it was just that my husband was not good at husbanding.  After a while though, and some individual therapy, I realized it was because growing up I felt like I had to do everything for my younger brothers, and I felt that they did nothing.  I even had to clean the bathrooms that they used and it was so gross.  This was the real root cause, and thank heavens my husband had the good sense to know that there was something more going on than him forgetting to pick up his clothes.  

Marriage is a balancing act of knowing when it is something to do with you, your past, or if it really is an issue that needs to be resolved within the marriage.  

Week 6 Cherishing your spouse - You know too much, and that is a good thing

So many thoughts about this week.  We read in Dr. Gottman’s book Seven Principles of Making Marriage Work chapters four and five all about deepening our relationship with our spouse, as well as creating in-depth love maps.  One thing that I loved about all the questions and activities in the book is that it required a lot of emotional effort and vulnerability.  Some of the questions went to difficult places, like childhood experiences that were difficult, or about how they strengthened and healed themselves after hardships or grievances.  In some ways, it is very similar questions that my husband and I asked each other when we were going through couples’ therapy.  We got married, and I felt that we had a solid marriage, but after engaging in exercise like the ones in Dr. Gottman’s book I felt that I had a new appreciation and affection for my husband, and vice versa.  Some challenges in marriage in maintaining a love map is that it takes real effort.  This isn’t a one-time round of questions and then you and your spouse are done.  It takes constant updating.  Similar to an app, it needs to be improved, and the kinks and bugs worked out.  It also takes using the app to figure out where the weak spots are, and listening to feedback from your spouse to see where improvements can be made.  Marriage takes work, but it is so rewarding when both the husband and wife are engaged in making their relationship based on love and appreciation for each other.  My husband and I say, I like you, and I love you.  We want to be with each other, because we have a solid base of friendship.  The meme that says, "You will always be my best friend, because you know too much" definitely applies to me and my husband.  We know everything about each other, because we are vulnerable with each other and trust each other to not run away when the hard stuff comes up.  

Week 5 Negative Behaviors - The hubby is my bestie

  

Damon and I have been married for almost 16 years.  We have four kids.  We have been through hard times, easy times, and everything in between.  I would categorize us in the positive sentiment category.  We have arguments, for sure, but the example of a couple sticking out their tongues at each other over what car they should get made me laugh because we have literally done the exact something.  It breaks the tension, and ultimately checks us back into reality.  I think I need that a lot.  I dose of perspective, with the idea of “Does this really matter in the grand scheme of things?”  As I read Dr. Gottman’s book about how a marriage can go wrong, it made me so sad!  The examples of the arguments that he listened in on were horrible to hear.  I downloaded the audible version of the book as well because of time constraints this week, and hearing it was way worse than reading it.  I thought it was really interesting that he coined the term ‘flooding’ when the couple’s physiological responses were evident.  The body was literally flooding itself with stress hormones resulting in raised heart rate and other stress indicators. I noticed the same results happening in myself listening to them. 

In a marriage, friendship is everything.  If you aren’t friends with your spouse, then what is the point of marriage.  I view my husband as my ultimate confidant, who I can be myself with and there is no judgement or criticism.  He is my best friend.  I can tell him anything, and he tells me everything, and it is so beautiful.  Allowing someone in like that takes some bravery and vulnerability.  It is worth it though.  My husband and I share everything, we know everything, and we laugh a lot because of it.  Neither of us are perfect, and we have things we can definitely work on.  But we do work on them.  Because we know it is important, and actively working on yourself signifies to your spouse that you are trying.  Knowing that a person is trying to become a better person helps the other give the benefit of the doubt, which is so important in any relationship.  If we were to quick to pounce and glaringly show a mistake, eventually the marriage would deteriorate.  If there is an incident of something gone wrong, I usually start with, “Hey, are you okay?  (What ever the event was) wasn’t like you, did something happen today?”  More often than not it was something that was totally unrelated to me or the kids, and most of the time we don’t even know what was bothering us until we talk it out. 

What ways do you and your spouse maintain the friendship and support eachother?

Week 4 Doctrine of Eternal Marriage - Marriage and the Three Wolves

ElderHafen's talk about marriage facing the three wolves really resonated with me this week.  I know everyone thinks of marriage as the start of an awesome life, and it is.  It is also really hard at times.  The three wolves that Elder Hafen explains are 1. Adversity 2. Individual Imperfections 3. Excessive Individualism.   In a covenant marriage, this is explained in the talk that the perspective is different.  There is more accountability, because the couple goes into the marriage knowing it is for eternity.  To me, this means that there is sufficient skin in the game to make the fight worth it.  

I remember when I got engaged, my grandmother, who was a feisty lady, told me, "Oh little girl, you are going to grow up the hard way."  I was actually really offended.  However, after 16 years of marriage, I can see she was speaking from an experienced perspective.  If a couple is not able to look inward and hold themselves accountable to any shortcomings that will definitely be exposed in a marriage, then it will be a very unhappy one.  This is hard to do!  No one likes to be wrong, and most people don’t like admitting that they are flawed.  It takes the marriage to a vulnerable and wonderful place when one or the other can say, “Yes, I see that I was wrong.  I know I need to work on that, and I am sorry.”  I wish I had learned this sooner in my marriage. Damon and I are best friends.  We love each other, and we laugh a lot.  We also have been through a lot.  We lost everything, essentially, about ten years ago.  Damon lost his job, we lost our home, and I was pregnant with our second baby.  It was a humbling year, both individually and as a family.  It took a lot to come up from that blow, but through adversity we gain so much, like the ability to ask for help. We lost things we didn’t need like pride.  We realized that God’s plan for us isn’t always known, but that we will always be taken care of.  Adversity exposes weakness, individual imperfections come to a glaring head.  I think this is make or break for a marriage. 

You have a choice with the individualism.  If a person keeps putting him/herself and interests first, the marriage will deteriorate.  If you learn to love and serve your spouse, the marriage will thrive.  Your needs will be met if your spouse is doing the same.  Both spouses put in 100%.  It is a constant giving and receiving.  One must learn to serve, and also allow their spouse to serve them.  That can be difficult too!  Knowing your partner’s love language is key in making this a success. That is another post for another time.

I would love to hear your thoughts on the three wolves.  How do you think adversity, individual imperfections, and individualism affect a marriage?

Week 3 Threats to Marriage - This is a hard one.

I learned a lot.  I read (okay, more like labored through and understood a fraction of) the ruling of Obergefell v. Hodges written by the supreme court justices Roberts, Scalia, Thomas, and Alito.  Maybe I was dreadfully unware, but the four dissenting supreme court justices ruled against the case not because of any morality issue, but that of it not being within their power to make sweeping legislation, thus overturning the states right to define marriage, as well as depriving each state of there electoral and legislative process. 

I’d like to share some back ground on my family.  I have two openly gay brothers, one of whom is married to his husband of nearly five years.  I love them.  It has been very difficult at times to be a Marriage and Family Studies major at BYU-Idaho, with some of the articles I had to read, and discussion boards I have to participate in.  This week though was not the case.  In one of the videos this week, it talked about two different cases that the supreme court had ruled on that changed the American culture.  Brown vs Board of Education, and Roe v Wade.  One resulted in being a racist equal to a social pariah, and the other, while still facing some criticism, is still able to voice dissenting opinion.  I feel that this is the way it is happening with gay marriage, in part because of the Christian values we uphold, but also the gay community.  I have had a lot of experience within this community, and they are such wonderful people who welcome anyone and everyone with open arms.  I can say the same thing for the Christian community. I think that one can be for traditional families, and not be a social pariah, if it is handled with respect and love.  One can be for gay marriage, and still be friends with one who is openly against it.  I have seen it in my own family.  Tolerance of both sides is key. 

What is your take on this?  How can both sides be heard and mutual tolerance reign supreme?

Week 2 Marriage Trends - Thoughts on Marriage, Co-habitation, and Divorce

I have seen to some extent the idea that marriage is optional.  Many people genuinely do believe that living with your partner prior to marriage is a good thing, that living together will help ease them into marriage.  In my view, I feel like this is the easy out method.  Let me explain, I think that people in general are terrified of being vulnerable and authentic.  With cohabitation, it is like an insurance policy that one can walk away relatively unscathed if one or both of the individuals deem it ‘not working’.  Maybe this is a little judgmental, but when I hear ‘not working’, I want to probe a little to see if ‘not working’ actually means “I don’t want to change and put someone else first”.  Marriage is committing fully to another person.  Marriage is hard, it takes work, and it is so rewarding when two people work together towards a common goal.  Dallin H. Oaks said, “A good marriage does not require a perfect man or a perfect woman. It only requires a man and a woman committed to strive together toward perfection.”  This is not the easiest advice to follow.   If there is commitment in a marriage, it stands to be better for everyone involved, particularly if there are children in the marriage.  

Children benefit from a stable, healthy marriage.  In the 2012 article “The State of our Unions” research had been done and suggested that children stand to be more well-adjusted, emotionally stable individuals when they are raised in a home with both parents who are married.  In 2012 a staggering tipping point happened when 53% of births in the United States were to unmarried women under 30.  I am a mother, I have four children.  I remember the birth of my first.  I was newly married; my husband and I were approaching our two-year anniversary.  I remember feeling so overwhelmed and unprepared.  I could not imagine the stress and pressure a single mother must feel, or even a mother who has a boyfriend, but are not married.  There is so much uncertainty in that situation, and I believe that energetically a child can pick up on that.  It affects them too.   I do feel that children can sense emotional tension even if they don’t realize that is what they are picking up on. 

Now let’s talk divorce.  I am going to start by saying that often times a marriage can and should be saved.  There are no guarantees that the next marriage will be better or happier.  However, there are times that a marriage needs to end.  This is the most important part: I will never be the one that judges another for their choice to get a divorce.  There are two sides to every story.  There is no way I can fully understand what you are going through, what you have been through, and what you can and can not take on.  I am here to be a friend.  A support.  There is no need to make an already difficult situation harder.  No one needs that.  I hope that in these upcoming posts with my thoughts on marriage and what I am learning we can learn and discuss things frankly, with the spirit of respect and consideration.  The more we can learn from each other, the more we can grow as a society.

 Refrences

https://www.lds.org/general-conference/2007/04/divorce?lang=eng